Sunday, September 30, 2012

To Kill a Mockingbird



This book is probably the only one I was thankful for that my teachers forced me to read it. I thought it was going to be another horribly written/boring book, but I was surprised to find it interesting and inspiring.

Who knew having a kid named Scout as a narrator was actually cool? I'll be honest and say that I literally cringed when I heard my teacher summarize the book before we read it, but the book was actually more complex than he made it sound. The characters are great and they'll definitely stay with you for a long time. Atticus Finch & Boo Radley anyone? Ha.

The opening lines of the book already gets you hooked, because you're like how did Jem break his arm?! After that, Scout takes you to a journey you'll never forget. She'll hit places such as racism and family. She'll show you her views on the events unfolding before you, and how different a child's POV is from an adult's. 

She'll show you true strength when faced with hate and anger. She'll show you to never judge just because you heard stories from people in your town. She'll show you forgiveness and innocence. She'll show you how biased and arrogant people have become and that the color of your skin should not matter. It's who you are inside that matters. 

Can't believe that anyone could hate this book. It's simple. It's awesome. It's inspiring. Read it!
The only other book that I liked was The Outsiders. Other than that, school books are not so great or interesting. 



P.S. I will never forget the characters Atticus Finch & Boo Radley. They're the most awesome characters of all time. If you read this book, then you'll understand. 

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Just Listen




I don't know why I decided to pick this book up before, because at that time, I didn't really know who Sarah Dessen was. 

I love music and that's probably one reason why I decided to read it. Bu I definitely don't regret reading it!

Last year, Annabel was the girl "who had everything". Now, she has no friends because her "best friend" Sophie ditched her. She sits by herself during lunch and she recently found out that her sister is anorexic. Then, Annabel meets Owen, and maybe now she can face the one night that changed her life. 

I love the book because it wasn't all about romance. It pretty much hits many problems our society faces such as eating disorders and "should you tell?". I also love the idea of Annabel's family having a glass house, because on the outside they look like the perfect, happy family, but on the inside, they're not perfect nor are they happy. I think the glass house stood out to me the most in this book. 

The other thing that also stood out to me was Owen. He was a great character and even though he sat by himself at lunch, he shouldn't be characterized as a loner or as a scary bad guy. He was always there for Annabel and he had this thing about always telling the truth.

There were many things to like in this book. I like how Annabel slowly reconnects with her sister who she learned is anorexic, and I like how we see Annabel slowly learning to find herself with Owen by her side. 

Then, Annabel realizes that she shouldn't judge, she should just listen. She should listen to the one voice that she's been ignoring all along -- her own.

My review of this book doesn't do it justice. Just read the book and you'll definitely love it! 

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

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Sorry about the random spam posts guys! I'm not sure what's going on with my Tumblr page so hopefully I'll be able to fix the problem soon.

So since my page has been spamming, here's the first chapter of The Lost Prince by Julie Kagawa !!

*Chapter One*

New Kid

My name is Ethan Chase.

And I doubt I’ll live to see my eighteenth birthday.

That’s not me being dramatic; it just is. I just wish I hadn’t pulled so many people into this mess. They shouldn’t have to suffer because of me. Especially…her. God, if I could take back anything in my life, I would never have shown her my world—the hidden world all around us. I knew better than to let her in. Once you see Them, they’ll never leave you alone. They’ll never let you go. Maybe if I’d been strong, she wouldn’t be here with me as our seconds tick away, waiting to die.

It all started the day I transferred to a new school. Again.

The alarm clock went off at 6:00 a.m., but I had been awake for an hour, getting ready for another day in my weird, screwed-up life. I wish I was one of those guys who can roll out of bed, throw on a shirt and be ready to go, but sadly, my life isn’t that normal. For instance, today I’d filled the side pockets of my backpack with dried Saint-John’s-wort and stuffed a canister of salt in with my pens and notebook. I’d also driven three nails into the heels of the new boots Mom had bought me for the semester. I wore an iron cross on a chain beneath my shirt, and just last summer I’d gotten my ears pierced with metal studs. Originally, I’d gotten a lip ring and an eyebrow bar, too, but Dad had thrown a roof-shaking fit when I came home like that, and the studs were the only things I’d been allowed to keep.

Sighing, I spared a quick glance at myself in the mirror, making sure I looked as unapproachable as possible. Sometimes, I catch Mom looking at me sadly, as if she wonders where her little boy went. I used to have curly brown hair like Dad, until I took a pair of scissors and hacked it into jagged, uneven spikes. I used to have bright blue eyes like Mom and, apparently, like my sister. But over the years, my eyes have become darker, changing to a smoky blue-gray—from constant glaring, Dad jokes. I never used to sleep with a knife under my mattress, salt around my windows and a horseshoe over my door. I never used to be “brooding” and “hostile” and “impossible.” I used to smile more and laugh. I rarely do any of that now.

I know Mom worries about me. Dad says it’s normal teenage rebellion, that I’m going through a “phase” and that I’ll grow out of it. Sorry, Dad. But my life is far from normal.

And I’m dealing with it the only way I know how.

“Ethan?” Mom’s voice drifted into the room from beyond the door, soft and hesitant. “It’s past six. Are you up?”
“I’m up.” I grabbed my backpack and swung it over my white shirt, which was inside out, the tag poking up from the collar. Another small quirk my parents have gotten used to. “I’ll be right out.”

Grabbing my keys, I left my room with that familiar sense of resignation and dread stealing over me. Okay, then. Let’s get this day over with.

I have a weird family.

You’d never know it by looking at us. We seem perfectly normal; a nice American family living in a nice suburban neighborhood, with nice clean streets and nice neighbors on either side. Ten years ago we lived in the swamps, raising pigs.

Ten years ago we were poor, backwater folk, and we were happy. That was before we moved into the city, before we joined civilization again. My dad didn’t like it at first; he’d spent his whole life as a farmer. It was hard for him to adjust, but he did, eventually. Mom finally convinced him that we needed to be closer to people, that I needed to be closer to people, that the constant isolation was bad for me. That was what she told Dad, of course, but I knew the real reason. She was afraid. She was afraid of Them, that They would take me away again, that I would be kidnapped by faeries and taken into the Nevernever.

Yeah, I told you, my family is weird. And that’s not even the worst of it.

Somewhere out there, I have a sister. A half sister I haven’t seen in years, and not because she’s busy or married or across the ocean in some other country. No, it’s because she’s a queen. A faery queen, one of Them, and she can’t ever come home.

Tell me that’s not messed up. Of course, I can’t ever tell anyone. To normal humans, the fey world is hidden—glamoured and invisible. Most people wouldn’t see a goblin if it sauntered up and bit them on the nose. There are very few mortals cursed with the Sight, who can see invisible faeries lurking in dark corners and under beds. Who know that the creepy feeling of being watched isn’t just their imagination, and that the noises in the cellar or the attic aren’t really the house settling. Lucky me. I happen to be one of them.

My parents worry, of course, Mom especially. People already think I’m weird, dangerous, maybe a little crazy. Seeing faeries everywhere will do that to you. Because if the fey know you can see them, they tend to make your life a living hell. Last year, I was kicked out of school for setting fire to the library. What could I tell them? I was innocent, because I was trying to escape a redcap motley that followed me in from the street? That wasn’t the first time the fey had gotten me into trouble. I was the “bad kid,” the one the teachers spoke about in hushed voices, the quiet, dangerous kid whom everyone expected would end up on the evening news for some awful, shocking crime. Sometimes, it was infuriating.

I didn’t really care what they thought of me, but it was hard on Mom, so I tried to be good, futile as it was.

This semester, I’d be going to a new school, a new location. A place I could “start clean,” but it wouldn’t matter. As long as I could see the fey, they would never leave me alone.

All I could do was protect myself and my family, and hope I wouldn’t end up hurting anyone else.

When I came out, Mom was at the kitchen table, waiting for me. Dad wasn’t around. He worked the graveyard shift at UPS, and often slept till the middle of the afternoon.

Usually, I’d see him only at dinner and on weekends. That’s not to say he was happily oblivious when it came to my life; Mom might know me better, but Dad had no problem dol-ing out punishments if he thought I was slacking or if Mom complained. I’d gotten one D in science two years ago, and it was the last bad grade I’d ever received.

“Big day,” Mom said as I tossed my backpack on the counter and opened the fridge, reaching for the orange juice. “Are you sure you know the way to your new school?” I nodded. “I’ve got it set to my phone’s GPS. It’s not that far. I’ll be fine.”

She hesitated. I knew she didn’t want me driving there alone, even though I’d worked my butt off saving up for a car. The rusty, gray-green pickup sitting next to Dad’s truck in the driveway represented an entire summer of work—f lipping burgers, washing dishes, mopping up spilled drinks and food and vomit. It represented weekends spent working late, watching other kids my age hanging out, kissing girlfriends, tossing away money as if it fell from the sky. I’d earned that truck, and I wasn’t going to take the freaking bus to school.

But, because Mom was watching me with that sad, almost fearful look on her face, I sighed and muttered, “Do you want me to call you when I get there?”

“No, honey.” Mom straightened, waving it off. “It’s all right, you don’t have to do that. Just…please be careful.” I heard the unspoken words in her voice. Be careful of Them.

Don’t attract Their attention. Don’t let Them get you into trouble.

Try to stay in school this time.

“Iwill.”

She hovered a moment longer, then placed a quick peck on my cheek and wandered into the living room, pretending to be busy. I drained my juice, poured another glass and opened the fridge to put the container back.

As I closed the door, a magnet slipped loose and pinged to the f loor, and the note it was holding came free, f luttering to the ground. Kali demonstration, Sat, I read as I picked it up, and I let myself feel a tiny bit nervous. I’d started taking Kali, a Filipino martial art, several years ago, to better protect myself from the things I knew were out there. I was drawn to Kali because not only did it teach how to defend yourself empty-handed, it also taught stick, knife and sword work, too.

And in a world of dagger-toting goblins and sword-wielding gentry, I wanted to be ready for anything. This weekend, our class was putting on a demonstration at a martial arts tourna-ment, and I was part of the show.

If I could stay out of trouble that long, anyway. With me, it was always harder than it looked. Starting a new school in the middle of the fall semester sucks.

I should know. I’ve done all this before. The struggle to find your locker, the curious stares in the hallway, the walk of shame to your desk in your new classroom, twenty or so pairs of eyes following you down the aisle.

Maybe third time’s the charm. Slumped into my seat, which thankfully was in the far corner. The heat from two dozen stares blazed on the top of my head, and I deliberately ignored them all. Maybe this time I can make it through a semester without getting expelled. One more year, just give me one more year and then I’m free. At least the teacher didn’t stand me up at the front of the room and introduce me to everyone; that would’ve been awkward. For the life of me, I couldn’t understand why they thought such humiliation was necessary. It was hard enough to fit in without having a spotlight turned on you the first day.

Not that I’d be doing any “fitting in.” I continued to feel curious glances directed at my corner the rest of the class, and I concentrated on not looking up, not making eye contact with anyone. I heard people whispering and hunched down even farther, studying the cover of my English book.

Something landed on my desk: a half sheet of notebook paper, folded into a square. I didn’t look up, not wanting to know who’d lobbed it at me. Slipping it beneath the desk, I opened it in my lap and looked down.

U the kid who burned down his school? it read in messy handwriting.

Sighing, I crumpled the note in my fist. So they’d already heard the rumors. Perfect. Apparently, I’d been in the local paper, a juvenile thug who was seen f leeing the scene of the crime. But because no one had actually witnessed me setting the library on fire, I was able to avoid being sent to jail. Barely.

I caught giggles and whispers somewhere to my right, and then another folded-up piece of paper hit my arm. I was going to trash the note without reading it this time, but curiosity got the better of me, and I peeked quickly.

Did u really knife that guy in Juvie?

“Mr. Chase.”

Miss Singer was stalking down the aisle toward me, her severe expression making her face look pinched and tight behind her glasses. Or maybe that was just the dark, tight bun pulling at her skin, making her eyes narrow. Her bracelets clinked as she extended her hand, waggling her fingers at me.

Her tone was firm. “Let’s have it, Mr. Chase.” I held up the note in two fingers, not looking at her. She snatched it from me. After a moment, she murmured, “See me after class.”

Damn. Thirty minutes into a new semester and I was already in trouble. This didn’t bode well for the rest of the year. I slumped farther, hunching my shoulders against all prying eyes, as Miss Singer returned to the front and continued the lesson.

I remained in my seat after class was dismissed, listening to the sounds of scraping chairs and shuff ling bodies, bags being tossed over shoulders. Voices surged around me, students talking and laughing with each other, gelling into their own little groups. As they began to file out, I finally looked up, letting my gaze wander over the few still lingering. A blond boy with glasses stood at Miss Singer’s desk, rambling on while she listened with calm amusement. From the eager, puppy-dog look in his eyes, it was clear he was either suffering from major infatuation or was campaigning for the position of teacher’s pet.

A group of girls stood by the door, clustered together like pigeons, cooing and giggling. I saw several of the guys staring as they left, hoping to catch the girls’ eye, only to be disappointed. I snorted softly. Good luck with that. At least three of the girls were blond, slender and beautiful, and a couple wore extremely short skirts that gave a fantastic view of their long, tanned legs. This was obviously the school’s pom squad, and guys like me—or anyone who wasn’t a jock, rich or po-litically inclined—had no chance.

And then, one of the girls turned and looked right at me.

I glanced away, hoping that no one noticed. Cheerleaders, I’d discovered, usually dated large, overly protective football stars whose policy was punch first, ask questions later. I did not want to find myself pressed up against my locker or a bathroom stall on my first day, about to get my face smashed in, because I had the gall to look at the quarterback’s girlfriend. I heard more whispers, imagined fingers pointed my way, and then a chorus of shocked squeaks and gasps reached my corner.

“She’s really going to do it,” someone hissed, and then footsteps padded across the room. One of the girls had broken away from the pack and was approaching me. Wonderful.

Go away. I shifted farther toward the wall. I have nothing you want or need. I’m not here so you can prove that you’re not scared of the tough new kid, and I do not want to get in a fight with your meathead boyfriend. Leave me alone.

“Hi.”

Resigned, I turned and stared into the face of a girl.

She was shorter than the others, more perky and cute than graceful and beautiful. Her long, straight hair was inky black, though she had dyed a few strands around her face a brilliant sapphire. She wore sneakers and dark jeans, tight enough to hug her slender legs, but not looking as if she’d painted them on. Warm brown eyes peered down at me as she stood with her hands clasped in front of her, shifting from foot to foot, as if it was impossible for her to stay still.

“Sorry about the note,” she continued, as I shifted back to eye her warily. “I told Regan not to do it—Miss Singer has eyes like a hawk. We didn’t mean to get you in trouble.” She smiled, and it lit up the room. “I’m Kenzie. Well, Mackenzie is my full name, but everyone calls me Kenzie. Don’t call me Mac or I’ll slug you.”

Behind her, the rest of the girls gaped and whispered to each other, shooting us furtive glances. I felt like some kind of exhibit at the zoo. Resentment simmered. I was just a curiosity to them, the dangerous new kid, to be stared at and gossiped about.

“And…you are…?” Kenzie prompted.

I looked away. “Not interested.”

“Okay. Wow.” She sounded surprised but not angry, not yet. “That’s…not what I was expecting.”

“Get used to it.” Inwardly, I cringed at the sound of my own voice. I was being a dick; I was fully aware of that. I was also fully aware that I was murdering any hope for acceptance in this place. You didn’t talk this way to a cute, popular cheerleader without becoming a social pariah. She would go back to her friends, and they would gossip, and more rumors would spread, and I’d be shunned for the rest of the year.

Good, I thought, trying to convince myself. That’s what I want. No one gets hurt this way. Everyone can just leave me alone.

Except…the girl wasn’t leaving. From the corner of my eye, I saw her lean back and cross her arms, still with that lopsided grin on her face. “No need to be nasty,” she said, unconcerned with my aggressiveness. “I’m not asking for a date, tough guy, just your name.”

Why was she still talking to me? Wasn’t I making myself clear? I didn’t want to talk. I didn’t want to answer her questions. The longer I spoke to anyone, the greater the chance that They would notice, and then the nightmare would begin again. “It’s Ethan,” I muttered, still staring at the wall. I forced the next words out. “Now piss off.”

“Huh. Well, aren’t we hostile.” Though her words were sharp, she still seemed more amused than anything. I resisted the urge to glance at her, though I still felt that smile, directed at me. “I was just trying to be nice, seeing as it’s your first day and all. But, if you want to be a jackass…”

“Miss St. James.” Our teacher’s voice cut across the room.

Kenzie turned to look, and I snuck a peek at her. “I need to speak with Mr. Chase,” Miss Singer continued, smiling at Kenzie. “Go to your next class, please.” Kenzie nodded. “Sure, Miss Singer.” Glancing back, she caught me staring at her and grinned before I could look away.

“See ya around, tough guy.”

I watched her bounce back to her friends, who surrounded her, giggling and whispering. Sneaking unsubtle glances at me, they filed through the door into the hall, leaving me alone with the teacher.

“Come here, Mr. Chase, if you would. I don’t want to shout at you over the classroom.”

Pulling myself to my feet, I walked down the aisle and slouched into a front-row desk. Miss Singer’s sharp black eyes watched me over her glasses, then she launched into a lecture about her no-tolerance policy for horseplay, and how she understood my situation, and how I could make something of myself if I just focused. As if that was all there was to it.

Thanks, but you might as well save your breath, I thought. I’ve heard this all before. How difficult it must be, moving to a new school, starting over. How bad my life at home must be. Don’t act as if you know what I’m going through. You don’t know me. You don’t know anything about my life. No one does.

And, if I had any say in it, no one ever would.


Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Teaser Tuesday 9/25!


Sneak peak of Becca Fitzpatrick's Finale!!!


A half hour later, I pulled into my driveway. I live with my mom in a quintessential Maine farmhouse, complete with white paint, blue shutters, and a shroud of ever-present fog. This time of year, the trees blazed fiery shades of red and gold, and the air held the crisp smells of pine sap, burning wood, and damp leaves. I jogged up the porch steps, where five portly pumpkins watched me like sentinels, and let myself in.

“I’m home!” I called to my mom, the light in the living room giving away her location. I dropped my keys on the sideboard and went back to find her.

She dog-eared her page, rose from the sofa, and squeezed me in a hug. “How did your night go?”
“I am officially drained of every last ounce of energy.” I pointed upstairs. “If I make it up to bed, it will be by sheer mental power alone.”

“While you were out, a man stopped by looking for you.”

I frowned. What man?

“He wouldn’t leave his name, and he wouldn’t tell me how he knew you,” my mom continued. “Should I be worried?”

“What did he look like?”

“Round face, ruddy complexion, blond hair.”

Him, then. The man who had a bone to pick with Patch. I fabricated a smile. “Oh, right. He’s a salesman. Keeps trying to get me to commit to senior pictures with his studio. Next thing you know, he’ll want to sell me graduation announcements too. Would it be completely disgusting if I skipped washing my face tonight? Staying awake an extra two minutes at this point is pushing it.”

Mom kissed my forehead. “Sweet dreams.”

I climbed to my bedroom, shut the door, and flopped spread-eagled on my bed. The music from the Devil’s Handbag still pulsed at the back of my head, but I was too tired to care. My eyes were halfway shut when I remembered the window. On a groan, I staggered over and unlatched the lock. Patch could get inside, but I wished him luck trying to keep me awake long enough to elicit a response.
I pulled my blankets up to my chin, felt the soft, blissful tug of a dream beckoning me closer, let it drag me under—

And then the mattress sank with the weight of another body.

“Not sure why you’re so enamored with this bed,” Patch said. “It’s twelve inches too short, four feet too narrow, and the purple sheets aren’t doing it for me. My bed, on the other hand . . .”

I opened one eye and found him stretched out beside me, hands clasped loosely behind his neck. His dark eyes watched mine, and he smelled clean and sexy. Most of all, he felt warm pressed up against me. Despite my best intentions, the close proximity was making it increasingly difficult to concentrate on sleep.

“Ha,” I said. “I know you don’t care how comfortable my bed is. You’d be fine on a pallet of bricks.” One of the downsides of Patch being a fallen angel was that he couldn’t feel physical sensation. No pain, but no pleasure either. I had to be content knowing that when I kissed him, he felt it on an emotional level only. I tried to pretend it didn’t matter, but I wanted him to feel electrified by my touch.

He kissed me lightly on the mouth. “What did you want to talk about?”

I couldn’t remember. Something about Dante. Whatever it was, it seemed unimportant. Talking in general seemed unimportant. I snuggled in closer, and Patch stroked his hand down my bare arm, making a warm tingly sensation shoot all the way to my toes.

Monday, September 24, 2012

Update



Hey guys!

Sorry about the lack of reviews/posts lately. I've been busy catching up with stuff and I'm definitely trying to post as much as I can! 

Next up on my list of books to read is The Lost Prince by Julie Kagawa, which I'm very excited about reading. I got an ARC copy so hopefully I can get a review up soon (depending on the rules of the publisher, I might have to wait until the release date). 

Anyways, in book news, October 23 is coming up! Probably the most awesome day of the year 2012. To name a few, Beautiful Redemption by Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl, Finale by Becca Fitzpatrick, and The Lost Prince by Julie Kagawa are all releasing that day!

Other notable October releases are: October 2Reflected in You by Sylvia Day, Mortal Ties by Eileen Wilks, Poison Princess by Kresley Cole, and Phantom Shadows by Dianne Duvall.

Definitely can't wait for these books to release and I'll post any updates for you guys! I also want to remind you guys that I have another blog http://bookreviewbuddy.blogspot.com/ just in case you can't access my tumblr page. If you have any questions/suggestions/books for me to review, feel free to contact me. I believe my email is on my tumblr page. If you guys also need any books to read just ask and I'll try and suggest some books to read. 

Year's almost over but I feel like September has been going by real slowly. However, this is usually the time of the year where many good books are releasing so get ready!

So, anyways, I'll end this post by saying I hope you guys have a great Tuesday! :)

- Your Book Buddy

Another Teaser Tuesday!


Enjoy this exclusive preview of Kresley Cole's



POISON PRINCESS

— Chapter 7 —



Sterling, Louisiana

The night before the Flash . . .



“This is creepy,” Mel said as we waded through dried-out brush near the abandoned mill on my farm. Again I wondered why my boyfriend Brandon had chosen this remote place for a late-night kick-back with a few couples.

Mel and I had driven as close as we dared in her Beamer, then started walking into the withered woods. The fog was so thick I could barely see where I was stepping. Another of my grandmother’s sayings surfaced: Be wary of droughts—snakes slither about. “This was not my idea, Mel.”

“I should seriously hope not. Two cheerleaders going out into the woods, at night, to a supposedly haunted sugar mill?”

“I can’t decide if it sounds like the beginning of a joke or a horror flick.”

She raised her brows. “Hey, you’ve still got your endangered V-card. Which means you’ll make it to closing credits—I’m s.o.l.” Wild-child Mel, never sugarcoating.

“Do you think the others are already here? Maybe they parked on the opposite side? I should try to call.” Then I remembered I’d left my overnight stuff and phone locked in her car, along with my precious sketchbook, full of drawings of the terrifying visions I’d been having. I turned, but couldn’t see the Beamer through the fog.

“Call?” Mel hastily said. “Don’t be silly. We’re almost there, right?”

As we neared what was left of the mill, I murmured, “Did you hear something?” I rubbed my nape, again feeling like I was being watched—

Lights blinded me. Bodies lunged at me, faces rushing closer.

I shrieked at the top of my lungs.

Shouts of “Surprise!” faded, dozens of students startled into silence by my reaction. Grace Anne, Katherine, Brandon. All of them looked stunned.

Oh. My. God. This is a surprise birthday party. Someone had strung up lights all over the walls. Speakers perched atop rusted cane crushers. Kegs sat in aged iron kettles.

I’d just humiliated myself in front of all of these people.

Mel’s jaw had dropped at my scream. Just when I was about to burst into tears, she recovered, saying loudly, “Evie! You totally knew about this, didn’t you, bitches? Freak out the surprisers?” Then she imitated my shriek, punctuating it with a yodeled “Lay-hee-hoo.”

When people started laughing, I forced a smile. “Yep. I knew. Been waiting all day to do that!” Keep smiling, Evie!

Now everyone relaxed, some giving me play punches on my shoulder like I’d just done something cool, a funny prank. Good save, Mel.

Out of the corner of her mouth, she muttered, “You had no idea, did you?”

“None-point-none.”

Brand swooped me up then and swung me around until I was truly laughing. “I hope you don’t mind.”

I bit my bottom lip. Maybe if the party didn’t get any bigger or the music too loud—

A horn honked. And another. Mel, Brand, and I gazed out the front entrance. Down an old tractor trail, headlight after headlight shone through the fog. It looked like a mass evacuation was pointed directly at the mill.

The last thing I needed was for my mom to call the cops, not realizing it was her daughter throwing the rager. “Look, guys, maybe this isn’t such a good idea.”

Mel and Brandon blinked at me in confusion. Evie Greene didn’t often utter those words.

“It’s not like we’re going to trash your house,” Brand said. “It’s outside.”

I was already on thin ice at home. “My mom—”

“Will never know. We’ve got, like, five miles between us and your house. Plus the walls keep the sound down.”

Wouldn’t it be abnormal for me to not have a sixteenth-birthday kegger? Hell, if Mom found out, she might take it as a good sign. She’d been rebellious with Gran and usually wasn’t too strict with me.

On the other hand, she might reconsider Brandon being “such a good boy” or hit her limit with Mel’s hijinks.

Earlier tonight, Mel had called her “Woman Who Spawned Evie” to her face. Mom had been unamused.

I didn’t know what I’d do if she outlawed either of them. They meant everything to me.

“I promise you, it’ll be okay,” Brand said. “Scout’s honor.” Instead of the three-finger Scout salute, he held up a peace sign.

I was wavering when Brand dug into his pocket. “Oh, I almost forgot! Your birthday present. Was saving this for Monday, but I thought you might want to wear it tonight.” He handed me a wrapped box with a crushed ribbon.

I ripped it open to find a huge solitaire on a white-gold chain. Stunning.

Mel clasped her hands over her chest, saying in a cajoling tone, “And all he wants is to throw a rager in your sugar mill?” Then she frowned. “Wow. That sounded raunchy.”

“Do you like it?” he asked, seeming nervous. Which was so adorable.

Game. Set. Match. “I love it. And I love my surprise party.” I stood on my toes to give him a quick kiss. “Thank you.”

He grinned, handing me a sweating Solo cup of beer. “Cheers, Eves!”

I raised my cup, hesitating. Would alcohol act wonky with my psych-pills?

But hey, how much worse could my head get? “Cheers, guys!”

For the next hour everybody partook heartily of keg juice, until we were—in Brand’s estimation—“fitshaced!” More and more people showed up, turning my party into a wild and woolly kegger. I saw faces I didn’t recognize, spied letterman jackets from other schools.

Over the course of the night, I’d watched several of Mel’s ill-fated attempts to flirt with Spencer. Yet now, as she danced with me up on a ledge, he was actually checking her out.

She and I sang so loudly I was losing my voice, danced so madly to the thumping music that the world was spiraling. For once, I didn’t fight it. We were laughing at something when I saw Jackson Deveaux leaning his shoulder against the crumbling brick wall in the back.

Then I noticed the other Cajun transfer students beginning to mingle with the crowd. Clotile’s racy outfit made mine—a shimmery Versace halter, black micromini, and knee-high Italian boots—look Amish.

But I couldn’t muster any outrage that they were all here. With a shrug, I thought, This ought to end well.

As I danced, Brand’s eyes were glued to me, not on Clotile. I cast a triumphant look in Jackson’s direction.

His darkened gaze was locked on me as well.

Flustered, I reached out two arms for Brand, prompting him to come help me down. But he swung me up instead, twirling me around in his arms. I laughed, throwing my head back. Spinning . . . spinning . . .

Tingling nose? No, no, not another hallucination! But I knew the symptom, knew there was nothing I could do to stop this.

Suddenly I saw the cryptic boy from my earlier vision. He gave me a defiant kind of shrug—like he’d done something I might get mad at?

On my next rotation, he’d disappeared, but I saw that blurry-faced girl. The archer from before?

I gasped, then caught a glimpse of movement in the tree limbs above. There was another boy! He was dressed in old-timey clothing, with long black hair and jet-black wings.

A last character joined the rotation, a boy with electricity sparking all around his body.

The girl and those two boys looked like they lay in wait for me, ready to pounce.

I twisted in Brandon’s grip until he let me down. With a hearty laugh, he said, “Evie, you about to yuke, or what?”

Or what! Or what!

I put my hand to my forehead—because now as my gaze darted around, I saw nothing out of the ordinary. Those kids had disappeared like mist.

— Chapter 8 —

Someone was climbing the stairs to my hidden spot.

After I’d disentangled myself from Brandon, assuring him I’d be fine with a short breather—again he took my word for it, though I was wide-eyed with panic—I’d climbed to a ledge near the old smokestack, needing to be alone, needing to keep watch.

I’d taken a seat, hanging my legs over the edge, careful not to crush the clover growing between the bricks. From here, I’d been able to look down on the party, like gazing at a living dollhouse.

Why couldn’t I be down there having fun like a normal teenage girl? Why did I always have to feel threatened? Under fire?

And why was my raucous birthday party still going strong—without me?

As if to illustrate, a football player mooned the crowd, with full-on junk shot. I sighed. I couldn’t unsee that. Ever.

Then I’d sensed someone on the stairs. Who would even know how to get up here?

Jackson. With two plastic cups in hand.

I exhaled a disappointed breath. He’d been hateful to me all week. Now he was going to ruin my weekend as well? “How did you find me?”

“Not many miniskirts escape my notice, cher.” The Cajunland player. He sat beside me, handing me a cup. “Here.”

I reluctantly accepted it, peering at the contents. “Is this roofied?”

“It can be.” Was he slurring? He definitely seemed buzzed tonight, his accent more pronounced, his black hair tousled.

“Lovely.” Was I slurring?

Apparently. Because Jackson said, “Goody Two-shoes Evie Greene got herself pickled, for true. If I’d known you were such a juvenile delinquent, I might’ve asked for a new history partner.”

“Juvenile delinquent? Hmm. Aren’t your initials J.D.? If the shoe fits . . .”

He took a drink from his beer, but I could tell his lips were thinned with irritation. “So here we are, the Cajun JD and a Sterling High cheerleader who draws weird Goth shit. I figured out all these other fools easy enough, but you . . .” He shook his head. “Something ain’t right with you, no. I doan like unsolved puzzles. Evangeline,” he added significantly. “You got a Cajun name—you part Cajun? That’s why you can speak my tongue?”

“How’d you find out my full name?”

He gave a shrug with one palm up, the most maddening of Cajun retorts, then took another drink.

I noticed his knuckles were taped again. From another fight? “What are you doing here, Jackson?”

“Are Sterling parties off-limits to Cajuns?”

“I just didn’t expect you and your friends at my birthday party.”

“This is yours? We heard about a blowout in a different parish, followed the free drinks.”

“A regular rager.” I pulled my hair over my shoulder, fanning myself.

When he fell silent, I turned to him, found him staring at my neck, his gray eyes hooded. “Damn, Evie, you smell good.”

Why did everybody keep talking about my scent? Even Mel had asked to borrow my perfume earlier. One problem: I didn’t wear any.

Jackson was still staring at me. Flashing him a wary look, I scooted farther away.

He blinked, then coughed into his fist. “Why aren’t you down at your own party?”

“I needed a quick tee-oh.”

“Uh-huh.” He drained his cup, chasing it with a shot from his ever-present flask.

I smelled the bite of whiskey on his breath, but didn’t find it unpleasant. “You’re at that thing constantly. And yet I never see you really drunk.”

“You want to get me drunk, you? Take advantage of ole Jack?”

“I’ll start referring to myself in third person before I take advantage of you, Jackson.”

“Heh. So, cher, now that you’ve set up this rendezvous with me, what are your intentions?”

I sipped from my cup. “You are firmly on the pipe.”

“I see the way you look at me, undressing me with your eyes.”

“Riiight. I have a boyfriend.”

“Then how come Radcliffe’s not here with you? How come he doan carry your books at school?”

Why had Jackson noticed that? “Should Brandon? Just because I’m a girl? I’m his equal, would just as soon carry his as he’d carry mine.”

“Where I come from, a man carries a woman’s things ’cause it’s polite—and to let other beaux know she’s taken. How’s anyone to know you belong to him?”

“I don’t belong to anyone. Did you come from a swamp—or a time capsule?”

He leaned forward until our faces were mere inches apart, then purred, “Now, dat’s not nice, Evangeline. Doan you want to be doux à moi?” Sweet to me. He dipped his finger down my halter top between my breasts—

“Jackson!” Then I realized he’d lifted up my new necklace.

“Pretty penny for this, no?” His gaze was shuttered.

“It’s an early birthday present from Brandon.”

“And I know just what you’re goan to give him.” He dropped the chain.

“You don’t know anything about me. Do you understand me? Nothing.” One of the clovers curled over my knuckles, which was strangely soothing.

“I’m starting to get an idea. Does Radcliffe know you?”

“Of course,” I said, though I had doubts. Why couldn’t Brandon sense how much stress I was under? Why add to it, pressuring me to play my V-card this weekend?

“Une menterie,” Jackson said. A lie.

“None of what you say matters. I know my boyfriend and I are solid.”

He gave a scornful laugh. “As long as you doan mind sharing him with brunettes of the Cajun persuasion. He’s been sniffing around Clotile, for true. And you know it, too. That’s why you’re dressing like . . . this.” He waved unsteadily at me.

“Like what?”

Another shuttered gaze. Another drink from his flask. “Different.”

“Brandon’s not doing any . . . sniffing. He loves me. He told me he thinks about me constantly.” As much as football! “And aren’t you concerned about your girlfriend?”

“Girlfriend? Hell, Clotile’s probably my sister.”

My lips parted. Probably? Jackson and I weren’t just from different worlds, but from different universes.

“Look at Radcliffe down there. You think you’re on his mind right now?”

Brand was surrounded by a bevy of slores as he drank from the keg like it was a water fountain. The life of the party, worshipped and adored.

Where was Mel? Normally, she’d be throwing elbows at those other girls. I hadn’t seen her—or Spencer—for a while. I rose at once, stepping over Jackson to go look for her.

“Where you goan, Evie?”

Though I ignored him, he followed me down the stairs. Back on the ground, I saw a shadowy figure skulking among the parked cars. I squinted, but couldn’t see through the fog. Another hallucination?

I cautiously eased closer to get a better look, but Jackson stepped in front of me. I shimmied to the left; he blocked me.

“I don’t have time for this.”

He began edging me toward the mill.

“Stop it, Jackson,” I snapped when my back met a brick wall. The bass pumped so hard that I could feel the vibrations through the stone.

He leaned in, his brows drawing together. “You got on some kind of expensive perfume? Never smelled anything like you.”

“I don’t wear perfume.”

He looked at me like I might be lying. “You smell almost like . . . honeysuckle.”

“I’m not wearing anything.”

“My fondest wish.” The corners of his lips curled—the first time I’d seen his expression even come close to a genuine smile.

Despite myself, that half grin affected me, made my heart speed up. Was Jackson flirting with me? Like a normal boy might? And not just to make me uncomfortable?

Too bad. Between Brandon, Death, and the cryptic boy, my dance card was full.

And this flirtatious side of Jackson made me wary. Even though the Cajun was attractive in a too-tall, too-rugged kind of way, I probably trusted Death in armor more. “Just leave me alone.”

“I will as soon as you do two things. Admit you speak French, and show me the rest of your drawings.”

I was already gazing past him, done with this conversation. “Why are you acting so interested? Why are we even talking? You hate me, remember?”

“Mais yeah.” For sure. Pressing his palm against the wall beside my head, he leaned in, murmuring, “But maybe I want you a little, too.”

I’d just learned something I’d never known. A boy could desire to have sex with me and not like me at all. In fact, he could even hate me.

“Maybe I’ve decided to forgive you for making me le misère.” Causing me trouble.

I exhaled, tired of these games. “Jackson, listen—”

“Call me Jack.”

“No. Because we’re not friends.” Imitating his accent, I said, “And only your friends call you Jack, no.”

He grinned down at me again, his teeth even and white. “We may not be friends, but I’m about to get real friendly with you.” I could feel the heat coming off his body. He smelled delicious, like the woods, a little wild.

He had some unknowable look in those watchful gray eyes of his. He seemed to be silently promising me something, but I didn’t know what.

“Friendly with me?”

“I’m goan to kiss you, cher.”

My thoughts scattered. Though the moment had begun to feel like a dream, I didn’t want to be a cheater. “I need to get . . . back to Brandon.” I laid my palms on Jackson’s chest to push him away, but his muscles flexed under my hands, his heat drawing my touch.

“I woan let you go back to that boy—not until you give me one bec doux.” A sweet kiss. Then he reached forward, unlacing the ribbon from my hair.

“What are you doing?” I murmured.

“Souvenir.” He put it in his pocket, and for some reason that struck me as the sexiest thing I’d ever seen.

I felt excited and alive for the first time in months. Where was the meh I’d been feeling about kissing and boys and sex?

At that moment, I was dying for this Cajun boy to kiss me. I didn’t care about my reputation, the friends I’d disappoint, the popularity I’d lose, or the bragging rights he’d win.

I had to know what the look in his eyes promised.

He was staring at my lips, and before I could think better of it, I’d wetted them.

“That’s it, bébé,” he said in a coaxing rasp. “Ma bonne fille.” My good girl.

He wrapped one of his arms behind my back, cupping my chin with his free hand. “Evangeline, I’m goan to kiss you until your toes curl, until we’re breathing for each other.”

That was the promise. . . .

As if from a great distance, I heard someone yell, “Jack!”

He ignored the voice, inching even closer to me.

“Jack!”

Our lips were about to meet—

“JACK!” I realized his friend Lionel was yanking on his arm.

As Jackson turned, he flashed Lionel the most frightening look I’d ever seen on a man. “What you want?” he thundered.

“Time to go, podna.”

Jackson shook his head hard, his arm snaking tighter around my lower back.

“We’re done here. Time—to—go,” Lionel repeated.

Whatever that meant. Yet Jackson was listening to him.

Lionel said to me, “They’re looking for you inside, Evie.”

“Oh. Oh!” I shimmied out of Jackson’s grasp, but I couldn’t stop from glancing over my shoulder.

When I bit my bottom lip, I thought he might come after me, but again Lionel hauled back on his arm. Jackson growled at his friend, “Want a taste of dat girl, me.” The look in his blazing eyes…

Lionel said something I didn’t hear.

Something that made Jackson scowl. “Go on, Evie,” he snapped. “Now! Go back to your friends.”

His curt dismissal stung, bewildering me even more. I hurried back inside, pressing my fingertips to my lips. Oh, God, I’d almost kissed another boy. I’d nearly cheated on Brandon, who didn’t deserve that—

I stopped in my tracks.

Clotile was slinking up to Brand, and he looked thrilled, holding out his hand for her. My jaw dropped as he helped her do a keg-stand, with all the wardrobe malfunctions that entailed. Football players cheered.

The humiliation. And in the midst of this embarrassing crisis, one mental plea stood out from all the rest: Please don’t let Jackson see this.

I shoved through the crowd toward the keg. When Brandon caught sight of me, he flushed red, helping a giggling Clotile down.

I was mortified that everyone had just witnessed this scene—and pissed off. Feeling reckless, I gazed up at Brandon. “Hey, big guy. Why don’t you give your girlfriend a kiss?”

“Here? In front of everybody?” he asked.

Hesitating? “Yes. Here.”

Finally, Brandon leaned down to slant his mouth over mine, once and again. With a stifled groan, he deepened the kiss, and I let him for a second, let him cover half of my ass with his palm. Then I smiled against his lips, nipping his bottom one with my teeth.

But instead of chuckling, he drew back, his lids heavy. “Ah, Evie, you don’t know—”

“Walk me to the river?” I interrupted.

With a dazed look on his face, he murmured, “Girl, I’d follow you into hell itself.”

Outside the mill, my satisfaction over my little victory dwindled—because now I had a drunken, hard-up boy to deal with.

As soon as the water was in sight, Brandon pulled me close. “You smell so good, Eves.”

When he began to kiss my neck—urgently—I peered up through the fog. I’d found my meh.

No, Evie, be smart about this. I reminded myself how easy it was to read Brandon, how open he was, how carefree. He was the type of boy I needed in my life.

I couldn’t lose him. “Hey, hold up.”

“Uh-huh.” He didn’t hold up.

I grabbed his face with two hands and made him meet my eyes. “I’ve made my decision about next weekend.”

His body shot tight with tension. “Yeah?”

“I’ve given the matter a lot of consideration, and I—”

Sirens blared.

A chorus of screams rang out: “Cops!”

My eyes went wide. The sheriff was here? “Oh, shit! Brandon!” As the music went dead, I swayed on my feet.

He caught my elbow. “Eves, I’ve got this! I’ll tell the sheriff that it was just me and some other football players, and the party got out of hand.”

“They’ll arrest you!”

“Doubt it. My dad plays golf with the sheriff. Everything’s gonna be fine! You were never here.” He cast me a drunken grin.

In that instant, he looked utterly heroic to me.

“Just wait right here. I’ll find Mel and tell her to meet you.” He turned, jogging away.

“Brandon?” I called. When he glanced over his shoulder, I started to say I love you, but all that came out was: “You’re the best.”

He gave me a wobbly salute, then set off for battle.

Alone, I nibbled my lip. Could Brandon keep this under wraps? I kept expecting more sirens to wail, or maybe a convoy of big vans to show up for arrests.

My first impulse was to call Mel, but my phone—along with all my stuff—was locked in her car!

A cool breeze swept over me, clearing the fog and sending leaves cartwheeling across the surface of the river. I rubbed my arms, freezing in this outfit.

On the heels of that wind, angry clouds moved in. An approaching thunder boomer? In Louisiana we got microbursts all the time. I wasn’t too concerned, would love to have the rain.

No, not too concerned—until chills skittered over the back of my neck.

Every rustle or animal call around me seemed amplified. I turned in a circle, but saw no one. Still I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was being watched. Just paranoia? Just another symptom?

Then came that tingling sensation once more. Oh, no, no! Ignore it. Resist it—

A lightning bolt forked down not twenty yards from me.

I screamed, temporarily blinded, waiting for the deafening crack of thunder. None came.

When another silent bolt landed even closer, it zapped the ground with so much force that soil and sparks erupted into the sky.

I stared, dumbfounded. Smoking specks of dirt wafted on the breeze, the sight rousing me into action. I took off running, sprinting down to the river’s edge.

A third bolt drove me closer to the water, into the moccasin-infested reeds. “Shit, shit!” My footfalls landed in the muck, the shallow mud sucking at my boots. I shifted my steps, running on my toes.

As more lightning landed, I realized it seemed to be following me.

This couldn’t be real. Because instead of bolts, I now saw spears—like javelins. They were sparkling silver, engraved with symbols, but they exploded like lightning upon impact.

Not real, not real, I repeated hysterically, pumping my arms for speed.

One sizzled just inches from my last footfall. Someone was trying to kill me! I lurched around, heading back toward the mill.

“Oh, God, oh, God!” I blundered around trees, dodging branches that seemed to be going out of their freaking way to reach me, to hold me still. “Ugh!”

I risked a glance over my shoulder. Someone, or something, was definitely after me—

I ran right into a man’s solid chest.

— Chapter 9 —

I nearly bounced back onto my ass, but a taped hand caught my arm. I craned my head up.

Jackson. “What’s wrong with you, girl?”

I gazed up at his face, catching my breath. “There’s l-lightning!”

“You got spooked by a little lightning?” He looked at me peculiarly, like he was disappointed in me. “I knew you were soft, but damn, Evie.”

That look stung. I backed away from him, fearing that I was about to cry in front of this boy. “This was different! It was . . .” Like lightning, but not. Electric and sizzling but cool. Yet when I looked above me, the sky was clear, the night still. Just another delusion.

“You out here alone?”

I gave a shaky nod. “I’m supposed to meet Melissa.”

“Everybody’s scattered.”

“Then what are you doing back here?” I actually felt safer in his presence. Jackson was a hardened criminal with lots of experience fighting. Judging by the tape on his fingers, I knew he’d landed at least some of his hits. “I thought you left.”

Gazing down at me, he said, “Maybe I came back to claim my taste of you.”

Between gritted teeth, I said, “Again, I have a boyfriend.”

“Again, I couldn’t tell. Seems Radcliffe ditched you in the woods. If you belonged to me, I’d never let you out of my sight—much less leave you alone out here.”

What was his fixation on girls belonging to boys? “Brandon went back to smooth things with the sheriff!”

In a voice dripping with scorn, Jackson grated, “Of course he did.”

“I’m going to find my friends.”

“Now, wait a minute. You can’t go back there, no. You’ll get pinched.” At my blank look, he added, “Arrested, on roll call, gaffled.”

“Wow, you expect me to speak Cajun and Juvie.”

He raked his taped fingers through his hair. “I doan s’pose I can leave you here.” He started squiring me away from the mill. I thought. I was so turned around I couldn’t get my bearings.

“Why are you being decent to me?”

“I’m not. I just want to get you on my bike, with you in that skirt. Where am I driving you to?”

I blinked at him. “I live here.”

“You live on this farm? In that eerie mansion up the way? No wonder you’re touched in the head.”

I didn’t deny the eerie description—or the touched-in-the-head comment. Fair’s fair. “You’ve seen my house?”

He gazed past me as he said, “I saw it from the road once, after harvest. When I was little.” He scrubbed his hand over his mouth, clearly wanting to be somewhere else. “I’ll take you home.” I realized we’d stopped near his bike, parked in the woods.

Where were his friends? Where was Clotile? “Wait, I can’t go home! I’ve been drinking. I’m supposed to spend the night with Mel.”

He raised his brows with an I should care about this why? look. “Two choices, peekôn.”

I frowned. Peekôn meant “thorn.”

“I can drive you home. Or I can leave your ass here. Alone.”

What if there was more lightning? I didn’t want to be out here by myself, at least not until I reached the cane fields. But I couldn’t ride a roaring motorcycle home. “Neither of those choices will work for me.”

He took a pull from his flask. “Nothing else will work for me.”

“Then leave.” Surely he wouldn’t abandon me.

 “Bon chance, peekôn.” He turned and strode toward his bike.

“Wait, Jackson! I can’t ride with you! My mom hates motorcycles, and she’ll hear me trying to sneak in.” I studied my muddy boots as I mumbled, “Will you walk with me? Just as far as the cane fields?”

He exhaled with undisguised irritation. “I’ll stay with you that far.” He disengaged the kickstand, pushing his bike.

As tendrils of fog drifted in, we walked in silence. I peered up at him from under my lashes, struggling to understand the excitement I’d felt when he’d been about to kiss me—versus the meh I’d felt when Brandon had actually been kissing me.

I pictured Brandon’s clean-cut good looks, his wavy brown locks, his letterman jacket and bright future.

Jack’s prospects? The state penitentiary in Angola. Just a matter of when he got sent there.

If Brandon was a good boy but not yet a great guy, Jackson was a bad boy—and already a bad guy.

And yet with the Cajun, I’d gotten a taste of what it was like to desire a boy, really desire. . . .

He offered me his flask.

I declined, asking, “Why do you drink so much?”

“You’re a fine one to talk, you.” When he saw I was waiting for an answer, he said, “Give me one reason not to.”

“It’s bad for your health.”

“You think I’m goan to live long enough to die of the effects of alcohol? Cheers to that.”

I tilted my head at him, musing on all the rumors that swirled around him—the knifings, the correctional center, the thefts in Sterling. “Jackson, are you as bad as everyone says?”

At the rim of his flask, he said, “A thousand times worse, fille.”

Thunder rumbled in the distance, as if to punctuate his statement.

Once we’d reached the dirt track that ran between two large cane fields, I said, “Thank you for seeing me this far. I’m good from here.”

“I’m not goan to leave you in the middle of a field,” he grumbled, yet with every step deeper into the towering cane, he seemed to grow more uneasy. “In the bayou, folks think this place is haunted.” He again cast me that studying glance. “Is it?”

Define haunted. “Maybe a little.” When the cane whispered in the windless night, I edged closer to the rows, running my splayed fingers over the stalks, taking comfort after my hallucination. Here I was safe.

A calm descended over me. I soaked up the sultry air, savoring the insect chatter, the sweet smell of dew, the animals at play all around us.

Everything was so alive, teeming with life. I sighed, my lids going half-masted.

“Drôle fille,” Jackson muttered. In proper French, drôle meant funny. In Cajun? Weird.

“What did you say?”

“It’s a foggy night and we’re walking by these rustling canes. A p’tee fille like you strolling along without a care in the world? Shouldn’t you be hanging on to my arm?”

“Hardly.”

When something stirred nearby, Jackson said, “This cane doan . . . unsettle you?”

“I love it. You’re probably just hearing raccoons.” Or snakes.

I noticed that he hadn’t hit that flask once since we’d been surrounded by cane. Maybe he sensed that something wasn’t right with me, with this place. Maybe he believed the tales of hauntings and wanted to be on his guard.

When I could make out Haven’s lights in the distance, I asked, “Are you superstitious, Jackson?”

“Mais yeah. I’m Cajun, me,” he said, exhaling with relief once we’d emerged from the cane. Then he immediately whistled low at the sight of Haven House. “Even bigger than I remember.”

I tried to see it from his eyes. The gaslights flickered over the twelve proud columns. Night-blooming jasmine ascended the many trellises, forever reaching for the grand old house as if with lust. Those majestic oaks had already caught it; they encircled the structure protectively.

Jackson’s gaze darted over the place with such keenness that I figured we were due for a break-in directly.

“You know what I think?” he finally said. “I think you are just like this house, Evangeline. Rich and fine on the outside—but no one’s got a clue what’s going on inside.”

He really could be surprisingly perceptive at times. “You think I’m fine, Cajun?”

He rolled his eyes, as if we were retreading established ground. “And both you and this place are a lot weirder than you have any business being.”

You’ve got no idea, Cajun. No. Idea. I turned toward the barn.

He eventually followed, catching up. “A big ole mansion like this, and just you and your folks live here?”

Though only Mom’s Mercedes was parked out front, I let him think I had a father on-site.

“You really are the richest family in the parish, then?”

“No. Everybody knows Brandon’s family is.”

A muscle ticked in his cheek. “Are you goan to stay out here?”

In answer, I opened the barn, standing in the doorway with a pointed look. But Jackson merely parked his bike, leaning against it. “Woan you get scared?”

With the cane fields nearby? Hardly.

“If you asked me nice, I might stay and be your bodyguard.”

When I gave a scoffing laugh at that, he scowled. “You love to laugh at me, doan you, peekôn? Enjoy it now, ’cause it woan always be that way.”

“What does that mean?” I thought back but didn’t remember laughing at him.

He just narrowed his eyes at me, looking dangerous in the gaslights.

“Feel free to leave at any time, Jackson. Because I don’t need a bodyguard, and I won’t be scared. I don’t have a choice anyway, since you refused to take me to find Melissa or Brandon.”

“Radcliffe again?” With a grated curse, Jackson pushed up from his bike, striding to the doorway. “Even though he helped Clotile with that keg-stand? After that, I thought for true you’d be reevaluating your definition of solid.”

“You ... you saw that?”

“Everyone saw that. And at your own birthday party, too. They also saw you trying to win his attention back. Looked desperate, if you ask me.”

Bile rose in my throat. Jackson had said that I needed to be taken down a peg. Mission accomplished.

“I just doan know what he thinks Clotile has over you. You’re pretty to look at in that skirt of yours, you’re good at dancing, and you smell like a flower. What’s not to like?”

When he smirked at me, I hit my limit.Enough! “You’re enjoying this!”

“A bon cÅ“ur.” Wholeheartedly.

“You would. Because you’re a cruel boy who gets off on other people’s unhappiness.” I held his gaze. “Brandon is twice the man you are. He always will be.”

Jackson’s expression turned more menacing than I’d ever seen it.

Done with him, I slammed the door in his face, then marched into the office at the back of the barn. Fuming, I paced. Reevaluate your definition of solid? I wanted to strangle him!

No, no, I didn’t need to be thinking about Jackson Deveaux; I needed to focus on who—or what—had attacked me.

Or at least to determine if I’d actually been attacked. When I reviewed every detail I could recall—and damn, I’d been buzzed—I concluded one thing: I was screwed.

I could accept some of the bizarre changes within me, could disguise them from my friends and my mom. But the lightning javelins? Death on a pale horse? Seeing the cryptic boy in class? Two years and out would never work.

Change of plans. Yes, I’d promised my mom that I would never contact Gran—but I was institution-bound anyway.

In my dream, Death had said, “No one told you to expect me?” Maybe Gran had?

I would sneak a call to my grandmother tomorrow.

As I wondered how I’d begin my first conversation with her in eight years, my head and face started tingling. Then hurting. The barn soon faded away. “No, no!”

Too much! I can’t take any more of this! I squeezed my eyes shut, as if that would do anything.

When I opened them again, I was standing in a windowless room, with beanbags on a tiled floor and Star Wars posters on the walls. A basement playroom?

Then I spied the cryptic boy, standing just before me! “You must prepare, Evie,” he said.

The bubbly sensation I usually experienced now felt more like a migraine, as if this vision were being shot into my skull with a nail gun. “J-just leave me alone!” Then to myself, I muttered, “How many visions can I have in one night?”

“Many,” he answered. “It’s the eve of the Beginning. Much work to do!”

Great. He was going to make as little sense as he had the first time I’d seen him. “Who are you?”

“Matthew Mat Zero Matto. Easier to think of me as the Fool.”

As in the Fool card? Ah, God, I had internalized my gran’s Tarot teachings. A character from the deck she’d always played with was now talking to me. “And I suppose the reaper who visited—the one who wants to kill me—was the Death card.”

He nodded. “Major Arcana.”

Hadn’t Gran explained the Major Arcana to me when I was young? They were special cards, maybe the trump cards of the Tarot?

Wasn’t there a time when I’d shuffled through her deck, the cards feeling so big in my little hands . . . ? I couldn’t remember!

The pain in my head grew excruciating. My eyes watered. “Matthew, this hurts!” I tasted blood running down the back of my throat, increasing my nausea.

The pressure eased a little, but not all the way. “I don’t want you to hurt,” he said gravely.

“Why do you keep appearing?”

“Field of battle. Arsenal. Obstacles. Foes. I’ve taught you each; you listen poorly.”

When blood trickled from my nose, I pressed the back of my hand against it. “I’m about to go under, kid. I mean screaming, hair-pulling, whackadoodle cracked. I can’t keep having these visions.”

He gazed at me with solemn brown eyes. “I won’t fail you. Evie, you are my only friend.”

His heartfelt words took me aback. He did seem so familiar. Just when I was wondering why I felt a measure of trust in him—he’d done everything imaginable not to deserve it—I reminded myself that he didn’t exist.

I shook my head hard, clearing just enough of the vision to escape. I headed for the door, snagging a horse blanket, then out toward the cane. Rainclouds had gathered above the field; thunder rumbled.

“No, Evie,” he called. “You aren’t ready! Your eyes will go bright if you look at the lights!”

“Just leave me alone, Matthew!”

“Turn away from the lights. Turn away! Want you safe!”

Right before I reached the edge of the cane, he warned once more, “It begins directly at the End. And the Beginning is nigh....”

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Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Guardians of Eternity series by Alexandra Ivy


One of my favorite series! It's pretty much about vampires, witches, werewolves, fey, & demons. The series portrays vampires as the more superior race than the werewolves because the werewolves have been losing their powers for a long time (you'll find out why in Salvatore's book).

The vampires have their own king, called the Anasso, and their new king is Styx. He's definitely a scary vampire due to his size and power. Salvatore is the king of the weres, and the humans that were bitten by weres are referred to as curs. The main conflict in the series is the return of the Dark Lord.

I love the series because the characters are funny and they're complex. The lead female characters are not annoying and they don't complain a lot. The lead male characters are believable, funny, and powerful.

My favorite characters are Salvatore, Harley, Viper, Jaelyn, Cezar, Jagr, Tane, and Cassandra. I love all the books in the series, but the most recent one (Caine & Cassandra's) was not as great.

I definitely recommend this series. It's definitely one of the best ones out there. The next book doesn't release until June 2013.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Looking Ahead 2012


OCTOBER 2 :

Phantom Shadows by Dianne Duvall (Immortal Guardians #3)

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Mortal Ties by Eileen Wilks (World of the Lupi #9)

Reflected in You by Sylvia Day (Crossfire #2)  

Poison Princess by Kresley Cole (The Arcana Chronicles #1)



OCTOBER 9:

Velveteen by Daniel Marks (Velveteen #1)

OCTOBER 23:

Beautiful Redemption by Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl (Caster Chronicles #4)

The Lost Prince by Julie Kagawa (The Iron Fey: Call of the Forgotten #1)

Finale by Becca Fitzpatrick (Hush, Hush #4)

NOVEMBER 6 :

Days of Blood & Starlight by Laini Taylor (Daughter of Smoke & Bone #2)

Rescue My Heart by Jill Shalvis (Animal Magnetism #3)

Dire Wants by Stephanie Tyler (Eternal Wolf Clan #2)

NOVEMBER 13 :
Black City by Elizabeth Richards (Black City #1)

NOVEMBER 20 :
Undeadly by Michele Vail (The Reaper Diaries #1)

NOVEMBER 27 :
Wild About You by Kerrelyn Sparks (Love at Stake #13)

Shadow's Claim by Kresley Cole (The Dacians #1)

DECEMBER 1 :
The Boys of Summer by C.J. Duggan 

DECEMBER 4 :
Archangel of Mercy by Christina Ashcroft

DECEMBER 6
Rogue Rider by Larissa Ione (Lords of Deliverance #4)

DECEMBER 11 :
Opal by Jennifer L. Armentrout (Lux #3)

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Teaser Tuesday!


Here's a sneak peak of Eileen Wilks' next book in her series!

MORTAL TIES excerpt: Chapter 1

Lily Yu hadn’t planned to visit the graveyard at sunset.  It just worked out that way.

Mount Hope’s main gates closed at three-thirty, but the pedestrian gates stayed open.  People liked to stop by after work, the guy at the cemetery’s office had said, especially on the deceased’s birthday or other important dates.  No parking available at this hour, though, except for what you could grab along the street.

Lily pulled her government-issue Ford to the curb and checked her rearview mirror.  The white Toyota that had been following her drew close, then cruised on by.  She would wait.  No point in making them anxious by getting out before they could park.   It was bad enough she brought them here when the light was going. Not that they would be spooked by the setting, no more than she was.  The dead weren’t scary.  It was the living you had to watch out for.

While the Toyota hunted a parking place, Lily transferred her penlight from her purse to her pocket.  The day was slipping down towards dusk, and twilight’s a tricky bugger.  In the daytime you know where you are and can see where you’re going.  At night you know you can’t see, not without help—electric help, most likely, from the city, a flashlight, whatever.  You know, so you take precautions.

Twilight blurs the edges.  In the shadow time, it’s easy to mistake what you see, to step wrong, thinking there’s light enough to keep going.  Back when she worked homicide, Lily had arrested people who went that one terrible step too far, confused by a personal twilight of drugs or emotion.  People who never set out to be killers.

But some take that step on purpose.  Some damn well know where the lines are, and cross them deliberately.  Like the bastard whose hearing she’d testified at today.

Goddamn copycats.

The Toyota backed itself into a spot between an SUV and a pickup halfway up the block.  Lily grabbed her purse, checked for cars, and climbed out of her Ford. Traffic was sparse enough she could cross right away, so she did.  By the time she reached the cemetery side of the street, two men had gotten out of the Toyota.

One was slim and pale, with a round face and glasses.  He looked like he ought to have a pocket protector tucked away somewhere.  The other was a head taller, eighty pounds heavier, and looked like he ought to have a couple tattoos and a rap sheet.  Geek Guy wore a cheap sports shirt.  Tough Guy wore a black t-shirt.  Both wore jeans, athletic shoes, and sports jackets.

Lily wore a jacket, too, and for the same reason.  It might be a few days short of January, but this was San Diego.  The air was crisp, not cold.  But people get upset if you walk around with your shoulder harness showing.

The men crossed the street between a dark sedan and a delivery truck.  Geek Guy made a quick gesture with one hand.  Tough Guy set off through the gate at an easy lope.  Lily followed Tough Guy—also known as Mike—and was in turn followed.

They hadn’t been tailed here, but it was just barely possible their enemies knew she planned to come and had someone waiting.  Highly unlikely, but possible.  A month ago she’d picked up a map of the cemetery.   Theoretically Friar could have somehow learned about that and kept the place staked out ever since.

Or so Scott had said when she told him she was coming here.  Lily considered this one of the safest things she’d done lately.  Friar’s organization had been badly damaged in October when he’d managed to get a lot of people killed, but had seen his long-laid plans blow up in his face.  She doubted he had the resources to keep a sniper in place 24/7 for a month.  She doubted even more that he had any idea she’d picked up that map in the first place.

He did, however, have one resource they could neither predict nor evaluate in any meaningful way, so she could be wrong.  If so, well, she had backup.

Sometimes it really is all in the name.

For months she’d struggled with the need for bodyguards.  No—be honest, she told herself as she set off down a narrow road that twisted through the cemetery, heading generally where she needed to go.  She’d hated it.  She’d hated dragging guards everywhere, hated the loss of privacy . . . hated, most of all, that one of them had given his life for her.  The need for them was real, but her acceptance of necessity had been a grim thing, testy and prone to muttering.

Last week Rule had shaken his head at her mutters and said, “I don’t get it.  Didn’t you ever call for backup when you were a regular cop?  That didn’t make you crazy. ”

“Backup,” she’d repeated slowly.  Then said it again as a weight shifted, not disappearing but settling into a more comfortable place, like slipping on her shoulder holster.  “Backup, not guards.  They’re my mobile backup.”

Trailed by half of her mobile backup—a.k.a. Geek Guy, a.k.a. Scott White, who was a lot more interested in guns and knives than computers--Lily left the road for the soft grass, moving between the resting places of the dead.

Her target lay in the newest part of the cemetery.  Mount Hope was old for this side of the country, an accumulation of graveyards the city had assumed responsibility for over the years, with lots of established trees and old-fashioned headstones.  Here, though, it was what they called garden-style, with neatly trimmed grass and markers set flat into the ground, each with a little holder for flowers.

The grass was damp and springy and perfumed the air.  In other parts of the country, people associated the smell of freshly cut grass with summer.  It evoked winter for Lily.  That’s when the rains came, when grass grew lush and green and in need of cutting.  This year December had been unusually wet, bestowing over five inches of rain on them.  Lily walked on soft grass between the graves of people she’d never known, heading for the one she had.

She hadn’t brought flowers.  It would be tacky to bring flowers to the grave of a woman you’d killed.  Especially when you didn’t regret it.

Lily counted rows, turned, and counted graves.  She didn’t see Mike nearby, but she hadn’t expected to.  Lupi were good at tucking themselves away where you couldn’t spot them.

And there it was.   Lily stopped.

She hadn’t brought flowers, but someone had.

Not an expensive bouquet.  More like the kind you pick up at the grocery store, with a few dyed carnations supplemented by baby’s breath.  Pink and red carnations, in this case.  There was an inch of water in the glass cylinder holding the bouquet.

Was this the right grave?  Maybe she’d lost count.  She knelt by the headstone laid flat into the ground, frowned at its unexpected decoration, then used her penlight to read the inscription on the plaque: HELEN ANNABELLE WHITEHEAD.

When Lily killed Helen a year ago last month,  she hadn’t known the woman’s last name.  She hadn’t known much about her at all, save for a few vital facts.  Helen had lived up to the common wisdom about telepaths--she’d been batwing crazy.  She’d tortured and she’d killed; she’d tried to open a hellgate; she’d intended to feed Lily’s lover to the Old One she served.   She’d also been doing her damnedest to kill Lily just before Lily put a stop to that and the rest of her plans.

So . . . no regrets, no.  Lily had done what she had to do.  And Helen hadn’t had a spouse, lover, or any living family, so Lily didn’t even carry the burden of having brought grief to those who might have loved the woman.

Yet here she was.  She wasn’t sure why.  In some murky, underneath way it was connected to what she’d done yesterday, when she and Rule had stood in line for a ridiculous amount of time at the County Clerk’s office.  They’d left with a marriage license good for the next ninety days.

The wedding was in March—two months, one week, and two days away.

Yesterday had been the immediate catalyst for this visit, but the decision to come here had grown up organically in Lily’s mind over the last several months. She’d found out where Helen was back in June, but hadn’t come.  Last month she’d swung by Mount Hope’s office and gotten directions and the map, but hadn’t gone to Helen’s grave.  She hadn’t been ready.

Ready for what?  She wasn’t sure.  She was here, and she still wasn’t sure.

Mount Hope had been San Diego’s municipal cemetery for about a hundred and fifty years.  Raymond Chandler was buried here.  So was Alta Hulett, America’s first female attorney, and the guy who established Balboa Park, and a lot of veterans.  So was Ah Quin, who was remembered as one of the city’s founding fathers . . . at least by its Chinese residents.  And so were those who’d been buried at the county’s expense, though budget cuts meant the county was likely to cremate, not plant, these days.

Helen had died a virgin, a killer, and intestate, but taxpayers hadn’t had to pick up the tab for disposing of her mortal remains.  The trustee appointed by a judge had seen to that, paying for it out of her estate.

Turned out Helen had socked away  well over a quarter million.  Telepaths had an inside track on conning people, didn’t they?  If they could shut out the voices in their heads enough to function, that is—which Helen had been able to do, thanks to the Old One she served.  That’s how she’d met her protégée, Patrick Harlowe . . . who’d also died badly, but not at Lily’s hands.  Cullen Seabourne had done the honors there.

But Lily had killed again since then.  Helen was her first, but killing and war went together, didn’t they?  Even if most of the country didn’t know they were at war, the lupi did.  Lily did.  And so did her boss, head of the FBI’s Unit Twelve . . . head, too, of the far less official Shadow Unit.

In the run-up to the war, Lily had killed demons, helped a wraith reach true death, and ushered a supposed immortal through that small, dark door.  This last September she’d tried and failed to kill a sidhe lord.  And in October, just before in the first open battle of the war,  she’d shot a man.  Double-tapped him.

That man had just shot a fellow FBI agent—a lying, treacherous bastard of an agent, but at that point he’d been on Lily’s side.  There had been other lives on the line: four lupi, another FBI agent, and the twenty-two people the bad guys intended to slaughter.  Lily had sited on the shooter’s head--his body had been blocked by the van he’d driven --and squeezed off two quick shots.  She’d killed him cold, not hot, killed him to stop him from killing others.

That was training.   Most cops never had to use their weapons, but when you took up the badge you knew you might be called on to take a life.   Lily had never doubted she could.  Not since she was eight, anyway.  The man who’d raped and killed her friend while she watched, tied up and waiting for him to do the same to her, had been arrested and tried and convicted.  He’d gone to prison for life, which was all the vengeance she was supposed to want.

But for months afterward, she’d dreamed of murder.

Lily had always known she entered the police force to stop the monsters.  She was beginning to understand the other reason she’d needed that bureaucratic harness.

“Goddamn morbid sort of thing to do, isn’t it?” said a gravelly voice.  “Hanging out at the grave of someone you killed.”

Lily jolted, then twisted to scowl at the intruder.  “Oh, hell.  I thought you were gone.”

“Guess you were wrong.”  The man standing disrespectfully atop a nearby grave wore a dark suit with a wrinkled white shirt and a plain tie.  He was on the skinny side of lean, with his dark, thinning hair combed straight back from a broad forehead, and he was pale.  Pale as in white.  Also slightly see-through.

Al Drummond.  Her very own personal haunt.